In meditation, or in certain moments in life, I can feel so much the energy of divine love and it almost feels "clicked" in, like an understanding. A thought comes "Aha, I have finally reached a place where I can maintain a feeling of surrender and contentment". Then, 2 hours later, confronted by some trigger in life, that feeling slips through my fingers, or I can almost lose all my confidence and struggle with feelings that I'm inferior or flawed... And, this process can seem to happen any time I want to instill a new feeling or belief, or overcome an old fear. It doesn't have to be particularly about the scenario mentioned above. The pattern that usually takes place is that I go back and forth between being with a new belief and then falling into old patterns. Usually the swings get less dramatic over time and something new begins to settle in and solidify.

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My little kitten pulled a card out of my Angel Deck to chew on. It was the card "Love"

On this planet right now we see and experience polarity and duality. Loving to be ruled by our minds instead of our hearts, we can analyze and judge. The "negative" side becomes "wrong" or "bad", or we want to escape from it. However, if you go deep enough into anything, it is all One, and every polarity, even often the "positives" usually contain the same call... a call to/for Love. Though we make this attainment of Love conditional, it really has no such conditions.

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